The silver lining in this all of this chaos came today. Let's start with the beginning of my day....
So for those of you who have been following the Vlogs/Blog saw that a few days back I made mention of my deceased daughter (I will do a video & post on my backstory in a few days), well our "song" was/is Lovely Day by Bill Withers. It never fails that when I am having a rough day, or I am in deep contemplation about something Lovely Day randomly pops up on my Zune, the radio or Pandora. So in the morning I usually listen to Pandora in the morning, but for the past week or so I have been playing my own playlist via Youtube and my Mp3 player on my phone, this morning however I decided to give Pandora another chance to get their act together (the mobile app for Pandora usually plays one song and then it "loads" for 15 mins). I spent about 10 mins sitting on the side of the bed "nexting" songs and then I decided to switch to my Neo-Soul channel. I LOVE Neo-Soul and it is always soothing to my soul, and being that I had just peed on a stick and I did not have a rise in my LH & my monitor & BBT had essentially flatlined I needed a boost. As I was in the closet I heard the opening bass line to Lovely Day and I literally said out loud "no way that is Lovely Day playing" but low and behold it was! Tears started flowing on the spot, I told Imani (my daughter) Hello and thanked her for comforting Mommy! After that I was on a high! I just kept thinking to myself now I need for my follicles & body to get it together and ovulate already!
I went through the rest of my day dealing with work stuff, trying to tie up loose ends before I leave for NYC on Monday. I tried not to think about, but all day I was thinking "I just need to Ovulate, I just need to Ovulate" of course adding "before Monday" but I went on with my day. When I got home from work DP & I ran a few errands and when we got home I was Googling about the trigger shot. Since we still have the trigger shot here at home I was seriously thinking about having DP trigger me so that we could inseminate on Sunday.
While I was Googling I felt the urge to pee and I figured while I was there I mineswell test. So I used a 2 month expired OPK and almost instantly a 2nd line popped up, now mind you when I tested at 7am this morning it was stark white, no 2nd line or anything! And here was a 2nd line, I as excited enough about that, so I decided to try a "smiley face" OPK and to my surprise the SMILEY FACE showed up!!! I literally screamed at the top of my lungs and ran downstairs at top speed to show DP!! I was jumping up and down and all DP said was "umm can you get those pee sticks out of my face?" (what a buzzkill LMAO). I re-tested with a fresh (and not expired) OPK and it was positive as well!
After having 3 days of BBT temps still in the pre-O "dip" and I was convinced that I was going to one of the women that just don't ovulate on Clomid which was going to result in a cyst and we would have to sit out, but I am so happy that is something that we don't even have to contend with this cycle.
We have scheduled our insemination for 9am tomorrow morning with the Naturopath we just need to retrieve our sperm from the RE's Andrology Lab!!! Fingers crossed that we are able to catch at least 1 of those eggies!!
Many Blessings xxxxBABYDUSTxxxx
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